Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Farewell, Comcast

For those of you who don't know- this last week or so has been filled with a lot of trials for our family. I lost my job this past week from Comcast. Right now I don't feel that the details are important to go into on this blog- but if you want to know feel free to ask or call us up. As my Bishop put it about me as an employee there"Bless your heart for being so honest" In no way do I want this experience to leave people feeling like they should stay away from the company- their products are great and I wish I could have them... I was bummed when we couldn't even get them for free while I worked there- c'est la vie!

However, I really wanted to share my experience with you- I apologize if this turns into a "journal entry"- so if you don't want to read anymore- feel free to stop. These past 8 months while I was there was very rough for me. I did a lot of 12 hour days- especially once the snow season flew in without any warning whatsoever! There were a lot of emotional days.

(here is their parking lot...)

I love working with people (hence my psychology degree) but it got to a point where my heart was too big and I let these customers really get to me. They tugged on my heart strings a bit. I had a few supervisors/floor support who told me to lie to some of my customers- I'm proud to say that I never did- but there was a lot of pressure to do so. Then about once or more a day I would get a call asking me to order adult rated movies for them- and that really tore me apart. I'll be honest- there were a few days where I just couldn't bring myself to do it ("I'm sorry sir, it looks like I can't find that movie and you'll have to do something else instead" =) no I really did. I felt like I was stuck in a nightmare.
(not my desk.. but what I was wishing for ;-) just kidding)

For a spiritual sense, I felt like I couldn't feel the spirit for how down I started to get. This didn't happen over night of course- but it really made an impact on how I went about my day and how I felt about myself. I spent a lot of time praying- but I just felt like I was in a rut. Especially after a 12 hour day- I only had 12 hours after that and we're really good about going to bed early enough so we can get 8hours of sleep... so after that it left me 4 hours to get everything else done- so an hour before I left for the day and 3 hours after work to get dinner together and any church thing I had or anything else. I was running on no gas- which i'm sure you've all felt at one time or another.

However, the day that I lost my job- I felt as if everything was lifted from my shoulders. It's a trial and a blessing at the same time. I'm job hunting and I'm trying as hard as I can- but I am so much happier. I love working and working to achieve things, but this job really destroyed me. No matter how hard I tried to rise above everything, I felt like I could never progress. I am stressed out because we're leaving in 13 weeks or so to Arkansas- but we do have a back up plan if everything goes south. I've applied to about 10 places and I've had 2 interviews in the last 3 days. It can only get better, right?

Sorry that I took up a lot of your time and a lot of space here- but I really needed to get this off my chest. I want to thank all of you for being there for us and for keeping us in your prayers- it makes a huge difference and it is appreciated. I figure if mom could rise above all of her trials no matter what the outcome- so can I. I'm just so glad that I've been able to come back to my senses almost. It has been a while since I've felt this good. I know it'll be hard to attract new employers with all of this information- but I know Heavenly Father has a place and plan for me. It's a learning experience and I know that I did everything the best I knew how.

5 comments:

amber said...

crystal i'm so glad you got this off your chest, i hope it feels better now, it is definitely NOT a waste of space or time! i really admire you for sticking it out that long, you are one strong girl, and it really sounds like you leaving was a blessing in disguise. but at least you can say you learned a lot about what you're capable of putting up with- kids are going to be a piece of cake compared to some of your customers! and i'm sure you'll get something soon, we're praying for you! :)

Anne said...

You dear girl. I was only aware of a small part of the negatives of your old job. Well, you can certainly feel good about holding your head above all that, and I know you will be blessed because of it.

Vanessa said...

way to go, Crystal!! In some ways I can relate, because I have been let go from a job that I didn't love, but thought I really needed. Good luck on the job search, I know you'll find something that's a much better fit for you and hopefully will be closer to home.

Rosalia said...

I know exactly how you feel trying to be honest and a job doesn't appriciate it! I stand right beside you if you need anything! The workforce is a tough place having to deal with poor management and bad customers can be tricky! I know cause I've had to deal with many in my own various jobs! Hang in there!

Jessica & Nathan said...

I'm glad you shared. I think that's what having a blog is for. Thank goodness for unemployment and Jon's internship! Good job for keeping your integrity, I have not done so well in your situation. Good luck, and remember everything works out!